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Things I once loved

I’m finding there are many activities I used to love and would make it a point to do them but I’ve lost them. Its seems I had ample time to do them. I would scrapbook and make handmade cards on a weekly basis. I would adventure out to new areas and explore scenery with my camera that I loved so much. I even used to develop my own film and pictures. I would read countless books in no time flat. I would even deepen my relationships with good friends by spending quality time together. I used to write poetry… what happened to that??

Through college I seemed to have lost those things. I don’t know if it’s the lack of time and the stress or what, but I really miss them. I want to get back into photography. I’ve got this great digital SLR and I miss using it. It’s just sitting there collecting dust and losing value. What a waste. If I do actually get back into it, I’d like to get some good lenses for it. See these things take time and money. And right now I’ve got ample amount of one and none of the other…. But I’m working on it.

As for scrapbooking, it also takes money. But I really do miss it. I used to dream of opening a business selling the cards I made. They were pretty darn good. I’ve done a few things here and there throughout the past couple years but nothing big or great. Currently I’m working on a book with my mom and we’ll see how that goes. We have some creative differences but I think it will come out nicely.

But the whole point is, I’d really like to take time for myself and do things I truly loved doing. If I find I don’t enjoy them as much as I once did, then oh well. At least I tried. And then I get to start the fun of exploring new things I can enjoy.

shoes and all

I went to RoadRunner Sports today with my lovely boyfriend. Casey (our salesman) made me walk across a computer mat which measured where exactly I apply the pressure when walking. Next he recorded my feet while running on a treadmill to see how and what angle I stepped while jogging. It was pretty intense and I was a little afraid. It was intimidating, but I got through it. After a little assesment by Casey and my explination of a love for pink, he brings out three or four pairs of running shoes, none of which were pink. I was a little dissapointed but I gave them a try. Apparently you are supposed to get running shoes a half size bigger than normal. So I’m normally an 8.5, he brings out 9s. Alright there, feeling a little awkward with these big shoes on my feet. then he does the little trick that your mother does when you’re a kid and pushed his thumb on the end of the shoe to find the end of my toe. Once he found it he said they weren’t big enough and I needed to go to a 9.5. what the heck?! That’s huge. So I try the next pair on and the feel like boats.

Finally I find a pair I think are decent and he puts me back on the treadmill/camera and examines my stride. Still rolling inward a little too much. So he gets my hopes up and finds a pink pair I should try… He comes back with a blue pair. apparently they don’t have any of the pink ones in my size. So I try on the blue ones and love them. They feel great, I feel supported, and overall a great shoe. Problem number one, they aren’t freaking pink. You don’t understand I had my heart set on pink shoes before I even decided to start running. I was promised pink shoes. I want my damn  pink shoes lol. However, a solution was found. A pair of them can be ordered from another location of the exact same shoe, but in the pink design. So problems solved right? No… Problem number two, they are $105. I’m struggling to find a job, I can’t afford to spend that much on shoes. But I cannot start running without new shoes. The shoes I have now give me blisters on the back of my heal. So I was thinking of going to get some cheaper shoes to start me off with. However, I’ve done research on running and they say good fitting shoes are the most important part of running. If I don’t have good fitting shoes I’m likely to hurt myself or get sore. I feel this is likely to leave me discouraged, because if I’m not enjoying running then I’m not going to want to push myself to continue and I’ll end up quitter. And no one likes a quitter…

www.roadrunnersports.com

Stephen bought me a VIP membership today because it’s on sale for $1.99.

The Shoe:

Brooks Adrenaline GTS 9

get up

I’ve been wanting to better myself and I’ve been wondering how to do that. I just graduated college with hopes to go to graduate school in a year. I’m taking a year off to give myself a break from all the homework and yreading and what not, I burnt myself out and knew I wouldn’t succeed if I went straight into four more years. I’m working on getting a job, so that’s out. I want to focus on bettering myself health wise. I’ve put on some weight since my high school years and it makes me sad. I need to take better care of my body. I know I could cut out certain foods that I enjoy, but that would be no fun. I mean, a girl can get grumpy when someone takes away her cake. Who said you can’t have your cake and eat it too… they were full of crap. But really all i need to do is shed a few pounds and tone some muscle. To do this I need to seriously increase my activity. I’m really looking into running. I’ve heard great things and I’ve always been envious of runners. They look great, well most of them, and they seem to have a great amount of energy.

But I’m worried. I’m so out of shape that getting off the couch scares me. I’m scared of failure and this prevents me from even starting. I have gotten encouragement from several runners saying I can do it, i just have to stick with it and do it for the right reasons. I’ve even got a wonderful boyfriend who is willing to work with me and help me get into it. He says he would love a running partner, but I think he overestimates my strength. I will only hold him back. And to be frank, it’s embarrassing.

I’m also worried of becoming burnt out after a few sessions. I need to find the right support. And I need to stop looking at running as working out, and start looking at it as a new opportunity. I hear it’s actually relaxing when you get into the zone. How running is relaxing is beyond me. I’ve always had a strong hatred for running, but I’ve seen close friends take it up and it transformed them. That could be me… right?? We’ll I’ll keep you updated.

my new best friend is going to become runnersworld.com